Suffer~~ing + heartbroken

I'm SUFFERING to stay at ' HERE'

I'm SUFFERING to be ur da******

I'm SUFFERING to be control by U

I'm SUFFERING to hear all the nonsense

I'm SUFFERING to pretend to be tough at 'HERE'

I'm SUFFERING to force myself to smile even though I'm sad& hurt

I'm SUFFERING to be the one that U all want

I'm SUFFER~~ING =(

I hate all the thing that happen now

I hate the way U treat me

Why ? Why can't U spend more time to communicate with us ?

Why can't U try to listen to what I wanna say ?

Why no matter how I try to become the one U want ,

U still thought that I'm the bad one

Why can't U care more about me ?

Why can't U place us at the first than ur business ?

Why can't U respect me ?

Why can't U believe me ?

Why U like to hear others more than me ?

I know ~~

I know at the stupid question that I ask won't have an answer

But do U know , all this question started to appear in my mind since few years ago

I always wish that I can be like others

I always wish I can get love from U

But I know it won't happen

Haiz ~~~

Do u know sometimes I will ask myself .....

* do u remember my birthday ?

* do u know what is my favourite food ?

* do u know what is my favourite drink ?

* do u know my primary&secondary school ?

* do u know what is my result for my exam ?

* do u know what is my foot size ?

* do u know who I always hanging around with ?

* do u know what is my wish ?

* do u know when I'm sick I wish U to take care of me ?

* do u know I have many thing to share with U but I didn't have the chance

* do u know my heart been broken by U ?

* do u know what U say mean so much to me ?

* do u know what U say make me cry ?

* do u know I felt tired le ?

* do u know how much pain I ever try before ?

So sad ~~

U didn't know all thing about me

Haiz ~~ speechless

By the way , I will try to accept the fate !!

( my boy I wish u can be my side )

(PS: sorry ya my friend , i know this blog is boring )